As "ber" months starts i begin to get attached to the feeling that any day soon i will get a year older again. Older yet did i get a year wiser too? i cant answer that, it’s for people to tell if i really did grow a bit better than last year. I myself don't know if indeed i have grown better. i am starting to feel the weight of my age..my God i'll be turning 29 in a couple of months. i am thinking if i at 28 I'll be more successful than my previous year...if at 29 i'll finally settle down or will i still be on the game of searching and searching for that ONE. honestly i am quite pressured by my age, because of the people around me who keeps on reminding me that i am already nearing the deadline. and i ask myself, “what deadline?” its as if I'm going to be submitted and I'm nearing that deadline. some say that my biological clock is fast tickling and that i should start worrying about it. But why should i worry when I'm just starting to enjoy life, enjoying single-hood at its finest. I'm more at ease at the moment, being carefree yet full of plans and dreams. i am the master of my own life. i don't have to worry about so many complicated things that attached ladies my age do. maybe I'm a little less wrinkle free that those who are in relationships claiming they are happy. well, I'm happy too and that doesn't count less that I'm single. I maybe in this state of relationship at the moment yet i don't have any regret nor do i sour grape over this thing. and besides i really don't cry over spilled milk. i have this positive dispositions over events occurring in my life regardless of how painful nor how deeply wounded i may have incurred in it. I don't get depressed by all of these things 'coz if I do, I will end up in misery and in anxiety. so rather than getting sad and mad over what happened i just simply forgo of the past..”let bygones be bygones.” now lets get back to my real sentiments, OMG my birthday is fast, fast approaching, and as it nears i get a lil’ excited and anxious brought about by so many reasons. maybe its just because of the age counting or because of issues regarding my single hood. Am I a candidate for bachelorette already or am I already a bachelorette at that? Well who cares anyway? Why would people around me get so affected by it, if I myself don't give a damn at all? they are more pressured than i do. well people just chill ok, relax its still not too late to start panicking. I'm still ok. My heart is still resting and still regaining its equilibrium. I'm still on the point of loving my current state of lifestyle, savouring every single moment of it. And isn't nicer to know that I'm rather single than attached and having a failed marriage, a candidate for annulment nor a separated spouse? Well you see being single isn't that bad after all…
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