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My cry baby moment, and I still can't deny that I am still mama's girl. I just miss home so much that hearing mama's voice made me cry again. Small talks with her means so much to me. She is always my confidante in all aspects of my life and I can never hide any pain from her. She knows a lot about my mischiefs and my carefree moments. A lot of my strengths I draw from her. In times when I'm about to trip off  she never lets me fall. She gives too much love, so much that at times I feel so undeserving of it. I'm getting teary-eyed again , I really miss mama, papa and my sismuahs so much.  This is one time of the year that I feel so alone here in the desert. Celebrating with my family even for a simple meal is far happier than doing it alone here.

I was not supposed to call mama today, but sudden attack of homesickness strike me again. Its just so good to hear her voice. Despite my so exhausting duty, I feel so relieved and energized again. And when she starts to talk I get so calm, her voices soothes my senses and relaxes my super stress mind.

It's a lot different when family gets into your emotions, especially for me. I think that's the way it is when you love and value your family so much. Maybe I share the same sentiments with others who are also miles apart from their families and love ones. Despite conditioning myself that I can overcome this homesickness, still there are times when you really can't avoid such. 

I'm now down to two, but as I get nearer I get a little apprehensive of the idea of aging and adding a wrinkle line. (lol!) Can't we all age gracefully minus all the fine lines and worries?

Yet despite  all the worries and homesickness day two is still worth ending coz i know someone from afar misses me too. I maybe too stubborn and irritable at times but he never fails to keep me smile. 

I wish "two" can just be "too", as a reply to your "I love you"