thalatha

Its my work off and I had the longest sleep again.Might have awaken from the wrong side of the bed or too much sleep is causing all these body malaise right now. I was dragging my feet to at least do some stuff today. It's been days since this headache is attacking me and it never failed to visit me again today. Honestly I just forced myself to start blogging at this time. I was supposed to be sleeping but this headache is preventing me from doing so. 

What else could I write on the third day? And for each day nearing I find myself getting depressed by the idea that soon I'll be on the last count on the calendar. My Oh my! Am I feeling the pressures now? Does the idea of getting old finally starts to sink into me? Funny though, coz the more i ignore and deny it the closer it clings to my feelings. 

I am in no position to say no to aging, its part of our life. And honestly no matter how I refuse  to discuss issues on aging and getting a year older I can't escape from reality coz it's really happening and will happen to others too. Darn age! lol!

I'm down to a couple more sleeps and waking ups and its the nineteenth of the month already. The day I'm at my happiest, aside from Christmas and New Years which I love celebrating with my family. Maybe I'm a bit on the downside because again, and again I'm celebrating it far from my love ones again. This is the 2nd time I'm celebrating far from papc, mamc and my sismuahs and mostly from my dearest, to the one who gives smiles and hopes for each passing lonely day I am in this cruel desert.

I don't really feel like celebrating, for me it's not the cakes nor the ice creams that will make me feel better.For me it's the company of people i love most that will make it more than special.I am fervently praying that as each day passes by things will get better and that i'll get a bit relieve from all the chaos of this desert life.

Please three be good to me!

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