kham-saah

High five? nah!! I prayed that this day be as good as the sixth one but the beginning didn't start so good. Although I hardly understand every word people around me are uttering I know there is something wrong which made me quite panic and worried. Whole day all went well, seems things are getting well, but every now and then i would hear words that gives me shivers and worries. I can't help but get a lil panicky and worried. No one seems to open up to me, i have been waiting in vain since the morning for someone to at least say something to me. But to no avail, no one did. What will I do? Should I relax, be calm and stay focus on my work? No! I can't, coz no matter how I try to just not mind still there's something inside me that makes me a 'lil bit worried. I'm into prayers, a lot really coz I know something is really going on here, but I don't exactly know. 

I don't want to look worried, but really I am. I want to stay focused for the entire day but it seems the silence of everyone is keeping me insanely distracted, on the edge and uneasy. 

Day 5 is not running smoothly as i wished for. 

I am on pins and needles right now and I can't help but fret.  O God, do help me with all of this that's going on. Though I can't exactly figure out the situation I can smell trouble so please please God help me make it through. Spare me this suffering and Please grant this as a birthday gift to me. 

I am wanting for a HIGH FIVE but I'm getting a LOW FIVE right now.

It's just so good that despite my  being hung up and ill at ease I'm bound to go home to the solitude of my bed and spend the rest of the day with the other half of my soul(Yah, keep on smiling honey, I know you are) even if we are continents apart. 

Gonna end day five on prayer mode, for this is what i need to make it through. 

Please Lord, light the path I'm tracking.Purify my heart and ease all the worries and burdens that's keeping me distressed and frightened. Strengthen my whole-being that things will not be as worst as what i am thinking. Do help me make it through each day of me existence. Bless those who love me so dearly despite all my shortcomings and grant everyone eternal happiness and contentment. Amen.